Do You Feel Worthy?
Published: May 10, 2017
It all begins with an idea. Maybe you want to launch a business. Maybe you want to turn a hobby into something more. Or maybe you have a creative project to share with the world. Whatever it is, the way you tell your story online can make all the difference.
Don’t worry about sounding professional. Sound like you. There are over 1.5 billion websites out there, but your story is what’s going to separate this one from the rest. If you read the words back and don’t hear your own voice in your head, that’s a good sign you still have more work to do.
Be clear, be confident and don’t overthink it. The beauty of your story is that it’s going to continue to evolve and your site can evolve with it. Your goal should be to make it feel right for right now. Later will take care of itself. It always does.
Ok so I have a worth issue. Mine is ironic because I am writing this now, but I am sometimes don’t know if I am worthy of being “seen and heard.”
Definition of Worthy: having or showing the qualities or abilities that merit recognition in a specified way.
I desire to be seen and heard. It’s actually one of my bigger desires in my life and I think I found where it originated.
So as the story goes “you are apart of your upbringing.” This couldn’t be more true for me. Way back when, we’re talking elementary school all the way up until probably college I was called “cute and small, I could fit you in my pocket! ” As some people would say. It’s endearing I suppose…
In elementary school my friends would speak up FOR ME (I was shy), I was small, I was scared, and I let others shine. In high school and even a little in college I never would raise my hand in class and when I did because I was dying to share my thoughts, my chest would push in on me and my throat would close up tight. I would also judge and critique every word that came out of my mouth and those words sounded so slow coming out. It was an awful debilitating feeling.
Anyone else have this feeling when speaking in groups?
So, we have Isabel as “cute, small, shy.” = scared to speak up i.e. not feeling heard.
Now about about “being seen.” Well that’s self explanatory i.e. small. Ok well I couldn’t help my size, that fast metabolism is now a blessing in my adult life. But back then, age 15, weight: 100lbs, height: 5'1' — on the smaller side of the teenager spectrum that’s for sure.
With the recent awareness to my “stuff” my “issues” as people love to say, now understand MYSELF more. Why I get triggered by others, or why I react in a certain way.
For example, the other day I was at a yoga studio for a Goddess Gathering and I walked up to a group of ladies, thinking I was making myself seen, the woman didn’t even notice me, she even bumped into my saying “oh I didn’t see you there.” In the past I would have reacted right away, saying something sassy or rude. THIS time, with my new found awareness of my “issues” I simply paused, said “it’s okay” and I just noticed how I felt in my body. My chest got tight and my body felt warm. That experience was my clue that I was on the right track with nailing down some part of me that I am insecure about.
This leads me to check in with myself today, where am I at with my “worthy of being heard and seen” stuff. Well it’s quite funny I’ve been having urges to write and get my Shosh blog back up and running…(it’s under development) so the “being heard” is nudging itself back into my life. Now it’s MY JOB to listen to my higher self and take action!
For being seen, well I do Crossfit so there’s that! Think that solved that issue. I am not longer small and weak, fragile, or frail. My physical body has 100% transformed, for the better — more on Crossfit another time.
So if the word “worthy” doesn’t hit home for you, then that’s ok. But I ask you, to pause and think about times you may feel not seen or not heard in life and how that makes you feel. Take those emotions and dig a little deeper, there’s always more to uncover than we see on the surface.
With love,
Isabel
